Help

I know its been a while... Been a summer of serious ups and downs. Hopefully soon I will get around to filling you all (all?) in. But for now, just wanted to stop by and say help.

I need help. I have gotten to the point where during my episodes I just yell for help.

HELP!!

Somebody, please? Somebody help the pain go away. Help me stop getting so, so, so hurt over the smallest things. Help me stop hurting those I truely love. Help me stop pushing away any "friend" that comes into my life.

Just help.

I don't deserve to live like this.... Right?

I aure as hell know that the people in my life don't deserve to deal with this.

Help!!

Help my poor sister. The one who I, single handedly, have put into therapy. The one who I have driven to that point. The one who doesn't know what to do. She is the one that wants to help me the most... But i am the one absolutely tearing her apart. Help! My little sister won't have friends over because she dreads the call... The call where I have loat it and it puts the whole family into a tailspin. She even told me that because of me she is afraid to have a boyfriend. My poor baby sister. I am wrecking her life. Someone please just help me...

I don't want to live like this anymore.

I need help.

Tonight, I almost called the cops on myself. I am living off on my own and don't have any friends or family to call. And i needed help. Thankfully.. For once the boyfriend stuck through the hurt I was causing him and got me to the point where I almost felt safe before he got off the phone... Instead of hanging up and setting me into an absolutely horrible tailspin like he normally would.

I just need help right now. I haven't been seeing either therapist since I am so far away and don't have time to see one here.

I just need help...

... Please?