No Chores = Another Fight

It never ends. I wasn't exactly having a great day: up since 3:30 because of school, a miserably hard exam, feeling alone, etc. Come home to try and get work (like actual get paid, work) done in the wonderful sunshine we had... and get upset within an hour of getting home. And it wasn't just yelling upset, included trying to break down a door.. those kinds of things. And what was it over? Cole not doing his 2 chores he has. 2. Like really? They're the 2 easiest ever.. unloading the dishwasher and taking out the garbage. Our roommate unloaded the dishwasher.. RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM. and I took out the garbage this morning. Is it really that hard when someone else starts doing your job to get up and say that you're going to do it?!?! Needless to say, I'm pretty annoyed/upset about this.

I just feel like he expects me to do everything around here. Hello?! He lives here too. Its not like we're married and I'm a stay at home mom or something. I have a harder course load.. and I work... Not to mention all of the BPD, Depression, Anxiety,etc crap I have to deal with. I don't see why he can't help. I'd really like more help then that, but just those two things would be a huge deal to me. His solution: do his own laundry. The one chore I actually kinda enjoy. Uh. NO! I've done his laundry our whole relationship.. and don't really see that changing.

But really, its this kinda stuff that makes living my life with this damn BPD so hard. Huge fights... over nothing. Tears.. Endless tears. A boyfriend who glares, is constantly angry and tired of being yelled out. Thats not what I want.. but can you blame him? I really wish he would do some research and try to understand what I am going through and do all that he can to not trigger it. But doesn't look like thats going to happen. I've been begging over 4 months. Anyone have ideas on getting him to learn?! I feel like if he would put in the effort our relationship would take a huge turn for the better. He'd not only know what I was going through, and know that its not really my fault, but also know how to prevent it and how to get me out of it. Actually, he knows how to get me out of it. But when hes too mad to do it... things hit the fan. Help?

Now, I just have to hope for a drama free weekend. I am going home with him for Easter. To be with his dad that keeps getting weird calls during my episodes... and his brother.. who hates me. Literally.